we're expected to have confidence, but i am not...
how to be beautiful:
Everything We Know is Failing
deadsecretary: I have been living in a dream world. I don’t say that like I’ve had a way of thinking the world is a different way than it really is, and I am just now realizing that reality is worse than I had suspected it might be, I just mean, everything feels like it’s unreal these days. Or maybe just for the last couple of hours. Maybe I woke up too early and the world isn’t real yet. Like...
tell me what you want or leave me alone
you sound so stupid
note to self:
stop writing strongly. punch hard with a soft fist.
i change shapes just to hide in this place but i’m still, i’m still...
Bent spine like the war books before him. (“The Pity Of It All” but one.) Never minding his eyes. Only owning the beauty of God’s carvings from dry cried mud, through the shelves, if at least for one dream. For the organic variable to collide with the signs- arrowhead pointing down, “here is your purpose” -and code an input; “fornication”, output; “satisfaction”. That is all sex is. Harry...
i heard you calling back to me
“you eat like a couple of pigs.” - mother “we’re growing adolescents!” - son # 1 “you’ll both grow up to be full-fledged men, who fall in love with girls, and never call them and be careless and they’ll grow to hate you.” - mother “well, there goes my love life.” - son # 2
“i am not talking of the wondrous jungle under the skin of men; the jungle of pains, weed-like entrails, grey lungs, golden intestines and red and yellow organs. no, i’m talking of that bird called the soul…which lives there. and which all men pursue. catholic. protestant. hebrew. buddhist. that’s my question, adam. “do you have such a bird?
on the train today
rarafreja: this morning on the train i had a little bit of a euphoric moment (i just have them sometimes) when i was watching some piles of little rocks as the train passed beside them. i watched them go (even though i knew it was me who was going, it looked like they were going) and i grew a grin, a very big grin, because it felt rather miraculous that i should just be there appreciating those...
anightinwinter: gal⋅va⋅nize [gal-vuh-nahyz] –verb (used with object), -nized, -niz⋅ing. 1. to stimulate by or as if by a galvanic current. This word, for some reason, always makes my cousin and I laugh our asses off. Go on. Just say it aloud: galvanize. While you’re at it, lick your lips if you have to. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2hzVV2Nwfs (then when you hear this, you may piss your...
'like' all of these, not a photo of me, dweebs